Random #1

Time and again i will log into this blog and reminisce about the days that i was actively churning out posts.

I love writing, love letting ideas flow effortlessly from my mind to my fingers typing frantically away at the keyboard. The rhythmic clicking of my keyboard now kinda excites me.

Recently i have been thinking about resuming writing here more and more.

It strikes me hardest when i was returning from Penang after my brief Chinese New Year holiday. The moment i boarded the plane, looking at the plastic smile pasted over the cabin crew faces, i was awashed with emotions. For the umpteenth time i am leaving Penang, i still feel the reluctance. I want to put these feelings into words, immortalising it, so that one day i can return and read what i felt, checking it against what lingers on in my memory.

We forget all the time. We whitewash our past since we were first born. It's our inherent nature.

I want to remember today as it is, and be able to relive the moments from my writings.

I guess this qualify as an emo post. Haha. It's almost 2am now and i am having insomnia.

It's Been a Year!

Haven't written anything for the last one year. Honestly i wasn't so busy with housemanship, but there just wasn't time to sit down and write in my leisure.

Maybe i will return to writing more prolific-ly soon. So long

Just for Laughs #11 - These Kids Are Really Damn Brilliant

You've gotta give it to them. I wish i had the foresight. 

12-Year-Old Boy Scouts Volunteer To Give Women Breast Exams

And yes you can also see how dumb mass media can be. 

Posted by Almighty asam =)

Happy birthday muaks

It's Over

Feeling lame. (Well you can tell it's an angmoh, so it can't be me.)

And so it's over. 

I don't feel exhilarated though. The feeling is just lame. 

Long case was a breeze, and was told i did really well. Short cases was not as great but i guess it's good enough. 

But the anticipated emancipatory joy is just not there. 

I guess i did not feel vindicated. The long case was simple, too simple to feel satisfied for doing well, while my performance at the short cases was wanting*. 

Wanting simply because i had a high expectation. So don't get alarmed. 

The short cases were a ulcerated papilloma, adult polycystic kidney disease, hallux valgus, and a plain AXR showing gas under diaphragm. Apart from the hallux valgus, the other 2 weren't the run-of-the-mill cases that we frequently get examined on. 

All the templates of perfect approach and answers gone down the drain just like that. 

Why do we even bother with short cases? What does it tell about a student? 

Zilt. 

Absolutely Beautiful Song

"Pimples"

I used to care so much about what others think about
Almost didn't have a thought of my own
The slightest remark would make me embark
On the journey of self doubt
But that was a while ago
This guy has got stronger
If I knew then what I know now
I would have told myself don't worry any longer it's OK

[Chorus:]
'cause a face without pimples is like a sky without stars
Why waste a second not loving who you are
Those little imperfections make you beautiful, lovable, valuable,
They show your personality inside your heart
Reflecting who you are

Who you are
Who you are
Who you are

I wondered if I could trade my body with somebody else in magazines
Would the whole world fall at my feet?
I felt unworthy and would blame my failures on the ugliness I could see
When the mirror looked at me
Sometimes I feel like the little girl who doesn't belong in her own world
But I'm getting better
And I'm reminding myself

[Chorus]

Reflecting who you are
Reflecting who you are
Hmmm
Whoooooo whoa hmmmm oooooo

[Chorus]

Updates

And so the theory papers are all over now. Now what's left is the make-it-or-break-it clinical examinations on friday, with a day of break before the final hurdle. 

The past 3 days have been good. So don't worry. I just hope i won't get cold feet before the clinicals. You know, once bitten, twice shy. 

It's rather weird to worry about exams. 

Nevermind, i shall take refuge in the knowledge that i have identified my weaknesses and had taken measures to improve on delivery. 

Time to go back to study.